Monday, August 23, 2010

I made something...

It may seem silly, but since Kelly passed, I haven't been able to do anything crafty. I've had a million ideas. But inevitably, I get to the part where I would have called her, told her, brainstormed with her, planned with her, laughed with her. Then I'd get off the phone, energized, feeling so confident and embark on making something wonderful! Slightly dramatized, but you get the picture. And since I don't have my sounding board/cheerleader anymore, the idea just fizzles and I miss her.

Well, this weekend I had a break through. Nothing significant happened. Maybe it's just that enough time has passed. Or maybe its that this idea can't fizzle. I have a birthday I must plan for a very special 4 year old fairy and a craft-blocked mama won't do. 

This was the first step. I made this:

I have 8 more to make. They are going into goody bags along with other woodland-y things. It's not great, but 4 year olds aren't big critics. I'm just glad I made something. I forgot how it feels to see an idea materialize. It felt good. It felt right. And when it was all finished, I sat it on the table and then I missed her.