Monday, August 23, 2010

I made something...

It may seem silly, but since Kelly passed, I haven't been able to do anything crafty. I've had a million ideas. But inevitably, I get to the part where I would have called her, told her, brainstormed with her, planned with her, laughed with her. Then I'd get off the phone, energized, feeling so confident and embark on making something wonderful! Slightly dramatized, but you get the picture. And since I don't have my sounding board/cheerleader anymore, the idea just fizzles and I miss her.

Well, this weekend I had a break through. Nothing significant happened. Maybe it's just that enough time has passed. Or maybe its that this idea can't fizzle. I have a birthday I must plan for a very special 4 year old fairy and a craft-blocked mama won't do. 


This was the first step. I made this:

I have 8 more to make. They are going into goody bags along with other woodland-y things. It's not great, but 4 year olds aren't big critics. I'm just glad I made something. I forgot how it feels to see an idea materialize. It felt good. It felt right. And when it was all finished, I sat it on the table and then I missed her.

7 comments:

  1. Francheska AndersonAugust 23, 2010 at 10:02 AM

    I love the sweet mushroom! It is precious. I bet Kelly is smiling at you with every stitch you make! Hugs:)

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  2. I love the mushroom and bet any little fairy would love to hop on it or hide under the cap:) I can hear the phone call now, "Mom, go to our blog and see what Kandyce made!!" Isn't it beautiful." She loved your creativity and would say to me, "How does she come up with that?" She's always going to be an angel on your shoulder, watching over you and loving all the things you come up with. Little LuLu is a very lucky fairy to have such a creative Mama. I love you, Susan xoxo

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  3. Nice work Kandie! The aforementioned fairy is going to love her goody bag. Kelly is certainly smiling . . .me, too. We miss you guys. Ari had to hear the litany of the Nelson family last night to go to sleep. "more, more," he kept asking. And thus I had to repeat the the wonderful list of kiddies names. Hugs from Ari and Matt :)

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  4. Oh Kandyce, your little fairy princess is completely adorable!! What a great pic. How exciting to be planning a party. Your post made me happy. It is nice to read your words and see that you were able to craft a bit. I'm sure your party bags are going to be a big hit for those four year olds!! Sending hugs to you!

    :)Lisa

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  5. Reading your post this evening gave me the biggest smile!
    I am so very happy to read this post Kandyce : )
    Your mushroom is great! I love you! xoxo

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  6. i so love toadstools!

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  7. So good to see you crafting and posting! Keep up the great work! Thanks for sharing your talents and your heart!

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